Sunday, February 15, 2009

Meds and such

Well, I have spent the entire weekend thus far in bed. I am finally starting to feel better and should probably get my ass up and clean this place... but I am really good at being lazy. Especially when I feel anxious.

I was thinking about meds today. I am currently taking pristiq. I started Jan 13th. So today is officially 1 month and 2 days of this pill.

Anyone else on this or have experience with it.

I sort of feel like a Guinea pig. Because even though it is a metabolite of effexor it isn't even a year old. How can they really know how it works, how effective it is.

In the beginning i was having all side effects imaginable. Low appetite nauseous I can't even remember what they all were.

Last weekend I had the best weekend I have had in a long time. I felt like the little one for over 24 hours. I miss that. I don't know what I did differently. But normally, I have anxiety daily regardless of this pill, mild-moderate depending on the day, always in the morning and then on and off throughout the day. I also get what I call chemical anxiety... like a buzzy body which I never had before this med. And although, I would say it helps with the depression in that I am more motivated and interested in hobbies that I had stopped doing for a period of time, it isn't really helping with the anxiety. And should I have one set back I can easily slide back into that not feeling great with the depression.

I started reading the anxiety and phobia workbook... I might have mentioned that previously so far I have gotten to the part about relaxation.

So this weeks goal is
Deep Breathing, progressive muscle relaxation, and guided imagery at least 5 times this week if not more.

and working out at least twice (cardio)
Yoga at least twice.

Let's see if I meet those goals

Would love to hear your thoughts on meds.

1 comment:

Hannah said...

I don't know anything about the mes you are taking. My opinion is that sometimes we need to get a boost by getting medicated, so we can feel more in control and get back to the real work of helping ourselves. I was on zoloft for 5 years. I needed it "now" due to post partum depression, but in the end it became a crutch that was hindering slowing my growth and actually hurting my relationships. I could go on and on. I'm glad that you are doing other stuff to help. Writing helps me so much! It's harder, but in my opinion it is way more valuable in the long term. You can do this.