I think i am ready

I am feeling very positive and very nostalgic today.

I think I am ready to take the bull by the horns to embrace positive living instead of being focused on my anxiety and depression and the past and future... to at least attempt as much as I can to live in the present.

I have been missing friends recently. Not that I don't have them but everyone lives get so busy and I don't get to see them as much.

I wish I had a weekly dinner with all my friends... i wish all my friends lived near me. Its such a difficult part of getting older not being at school with your friends all day or living next door to them.

And I have been secluding myself recently from my friends not avoiding situations but just not dreaming of participating in them at all cause i am so concerned about how I will feel or how they will react to me... and now I am ready to reenter having plans more than just on the weekends...
Its spring bring on the fun

I never know how to meet new people... unless they sort of just fall into your lap. I am always self conscious I guess about going to things like knitting circles and I want to volunteer but where... always searching for ideas...

the thing is I have 3 amazingly wonderful close girlfriends who don't live near me. 2 who do but have very busy lives as well do, and great friends from work who live in the burbs and isn't always easy to just all hang out...

but I am ready bring on the plans bring on the fun... hello spring!!